just deal with me okay!

smlm gaduh ngan dia lagi...pasal apa? yelah, spa suruh dia xreply msg or xjwb kol aku. ntah apa yg dia buat, aku pun xtau, so aku marah la..punya marah smpaikn aku silent aku punya hp.

then dia pun try la kol aku, masih marah lagi ni aku off la dia punya kol...malas nak jwb...aku pun malas nak bca msg dia. biar padan muka dia...huh!..puas hati aku.

tp, kerana syg...akhrnya aku pun jwb la jugak after 10 miskol n 12 msg..dia pun mbebel2...

marah2 mcm pompuan...puas dgar dia mbebel aku pun jwb ngan suara yg lemah...n rasa bersalah...

dia pun mula cool...n memujuk merayu...kesian jugak dgar dia...

tp pagi tadi, buat pertama kalinya aku bangun dengan penuh rasa bersemangat n bertenaga,

mana tak nya, dia yg kejutkn sbg menebus kesalahan dia smlm...

walau bagaimana kejamnya aku dgn dia tp dia ttp disisi... i love him too much but until now i never show my love to him...he already try to make me fall in love with him again so why not i take this chance n change the past...maybe he is the one that i waiting for..who's know?...

i know u still love me...from what u did to me...i love you, Mr. Jeremy Hayward...<3

"aku adalah aku"

u xnak change u punya attitude, its u punya pasal....

so, dont let me to be with u again...if u punya prangai stay the same...

i xtau mcm mana nak btahan ngan prangai u....

u nak return back, ok its fine...i dpt trima but must give me a good reason.

u said, u care n love me...but i need the prove...haprakkk..... nadai jalai nya wai...

jaku nemu, ngaga nda nemu...amende ka...

u xtetap pndrian la...i dont like man like u...

huh!!!...payah2....i tak nak trima u balik if u still like that...pull stop. aku nak tido!

NEW LIFE BEGINS!!!!

2011.......

january, ni bln ke-3 aku keja....

bz x tkata....tp xpe, hjg bln snyum smpai ke tlinga...(pay day..hehehe)

hidup aku kini?..emm..so far so good...aku bahagia smpai berat aku naik 3 kilo bln nie...huhuhu...

cuti makin xde dlm kamus hdup aku...tp, wpun aku bahagia, aku rindu ngan kengkawan aku time stdy dlu...ntahlh, masing2 da dgn haluan hdup diaorg... ada yg da nak kawin, yg xde bf dlu skrg da ada, yg ada bf dlu skrg single-mingle...mcm aku... gerek a.k.a BF...aku da serik la wei... bkn XNAK!...tp hati nie, ssh sgt nak trima org dlm hdup ini...kadang2 aku pun xpaham ngan aku sndri...tp yg aku tau aku bahagia spt ini.. xpe...yg pntg my new life has begin..datz all...

man0kpox...

man0kpox...
ade sesiape yg pnah dgar man0kpox nie?
mgkin juge ade yg pnah, n mybe not yet...
man0kpox or nma lain nya ialah..Chickenp0x...
ya...man0kpox nie la yg tlah myerang aku tika dan saat ini...
hr ini hr yg ke-7 aku dserang wp aku xnak man0k nie serang aku..(wat to do)..
syukur aku panjatkn krn pyerangan die xbksan, knape aku ckp xbksan?
KERANA...muka aku hanya dsrang 8 bintik mrah jer dmana skrg ini hanya tggl SCAR yg ingin aku buang sbentar nanti..kat blakang aku pulak, ada 13 (if im not mistaken)...n kat kaki sdikit shj...
s0, oleh sbb itulh aku mgatakn bhw pyrangan man0kpox ini xbksan sgt..(wp sblm nie aku merana giler..huhuhu..)...
apa yg i h0pe skrg nie ialah..SCAR kat muka n blakang aku tue hilang n lenyap dr hdup aku...
hahaha.....

i'm back...

after a long time...
i menjenguk blog i nie..
huahuahuhua...
speechless...
xtau nak ckp ape..
over this period, byk yg tjd dlm hdup aku ni..
ada yg dtg dan pergi..
ada yg sedih dan gumbira..
ada yg mrajuk dan mrajuk balik..
ada yg memujuk dan dipujuk...
hahaha...
smestinya aku bkn lh seorg penulis wp tringin nak jd mcm sape erkk..
aku juga bkn novelis spt aisya sofea wp aku mminati novel die esp Adam Dan Hawa..
sebuah novel yg mgasyikan dan mgkhayalkn dunia realiti aku buat seketika cuma..
aku juga bkn pyair atau pyajak spt A. Samad Said..(ntah bt0l ntah salah nama die yg aku taip nie)..
sesungguhnya, aku hanyalh Christina yg ingin mcuba mgindahkn bl0g aku ini..
huahuahua....

fleeing away...

Fleeing Away
MY thoughts soar not as they ought to soar,
Higher and higher on soul-lent wings;
But ever and often and more and more
They are dragged down earthward by little things,
By little troubles and little needs,
As a lark might be tangled among the weeds.
My purpose is not what it ought to be,
Steady and fixed, like a star on high,
But more like a fisherman's light at sea;
Hither and thither it seems to fly--
Sometimes feeble, and sometimes bright,
Then suddenly lost in the gloom of night.
My life is far from my dream of life--
Calmly contented, serenely glad;
But, vexed and worried by daily strife,
It is always troubled and ofttimes sad--
And the heights I had thought I should reach one day
Grow dimmer and dimmer, and farther away.
My heart never finds the longed-for rest;
Its worldly striving, its greed for gold,
Chilled and frightened the calm-eyed guest
Who sometimes sought me in days of old;
And ever fleeing away from me
Is the higher self that I long to be.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

in the l0ng run...

In the Long Run
IN the long run fame finds the deserving man.
The lucky wight may prosper for a day,
But in good time true merit leads the van,
And vain pretense, unnoticed, goes its way.
There is no Chance, no Destiny, no Fate,
But Fortune smiles on those who work and wait,
In the long run.
In the long run all goodly sorrow pays,
There is no better thing than righteous pain,
The sleepless nights, the awful thorn-crowned days,
Bring sure reward to tortured soul and brain.
Unmeaning joys enervate in the end,
But sorrow yields a glorious dividend
In the long run.
In the long run all hidden things are known,
The eye of truth will penetrate the night,
And good or ill, thy secret shall be known,
However well 't is guarded from the light.
All the unspoken motives of the breast
Are fathomed by the years and stand confest
In the long run.
In the long run all love is paid by love,
Though undervalued by the hosts of earth;
The great eternal Governemnt above
Keeps strict account and will redeem its worth.
Give thy love freely; do not count the cost;
So beautiful a thing was never lost
In the long run.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox